MY CLANDESTINE WONDERS

Time flies by

We exchange good byes...

Moving ahead with work

Enjoying credits and perks...

Then one evening we I sit alone

With all my worries dethroned...

Thinking of how this time was five years back

And, how I took a leap over these tracks...

Browsing through my pictures in Facebook

OH MY GOD!! Just take a look...

Reading all the crazy posts and shares

And the tags that are now very rare...

But I know this distance can’t part us

As the charisma we share is precious...

Giving an assurance that, though not near

But you are always there!

It is so reflexive

That you are the first to know my conflict...

Also, the person to embarrass me in public

Making it sound like cacophony of my triumph...

How blessed am I to have such devils around

A pact that I voluntarily signed for my surmount...

This gives me the faith that, though not near

But you are always there!

Endless talk from dusk to dawn

Seen with each other as pretty and clown...

Aren’t we “The Craziness Personified”

Also stupidity pacified... ;)

This is just a brief understanding of how it is

Not budged by the jeopardy of the widening distance...

Just to reassure that, though not near

But you are always there!

 PS : We don't exactly say this though! :D

SEASON'S GREETINGS

This is a dedication to “my kids”, (well not literally) but those tiny people out there who have revolutionised my life!! And small message from me to them as to how much they mean to me and also a small gesture to say that these small things that we do for others somehow makes us a better person down the line... And reviving these thoughts gives you a feeling that you have actually done something worthwhile in life J

I wanna be the hand

To hold you high

When you fall,

And not let you sigh...

I wanna be that shoulder

Where you lay your head

To be a support,

When you cry...

I wanna be that warmth

That encloses you

Protects you from miseries,

And sweeps you through...

I wanna be that pride

Which is true

Which shines in your eyes,

And never lets you feel blue...

I wanna be everything

That you think you lack

Which makes you feel inferior,

And pushes you back...

Because, all that I know is

You deserve a true chance

You are no less,

I can assure that in a glance...

You are a star

And my lucky charm

Don’t let the world come in your way,

And let you harm...

I promise you,

You will get what you deserve

And one day you will also help others,

And care for others by your serve...

DEEP DIVER

A WALK TO REMEMBER!!

Tiny tiny feet

Quick quick steps,

Lovely lovely walk

With no rest...

My hands gripped tight

Firm but mild,

To not loose 'the' sight

With the tides getting wild...

Years down the line

The walk is different,

The steps are mine

But, the pace is coherent...

The gripping hands are not the same

When I look upon, its the other name,

This jolly walk is not the same game

Hopefully this walk should have an 'Aim'...

And yet again the years roll down

Now walking down the 'Brown',

Is me

And my 'Mr. Found'!!

Hold on, I don't whine

Since 'Aim' and (Mr.)'Found' are not the same,

Because again the steps are mine

And I'm still in the game...

As no one can stop time,

Here again I'm with my steps,

This time less walk

And more rest...

Because this time

The footprint are alone,

With the humid air and setting sun

Introspecting what I was shown...

Time and tide wait for none

The footprint left are erased soon,

Gulped in the brine is everything

Because everything you have got has to sink...

I realized that in all stages

You alone survive,

People come and go

And every time you loose someone you revive...

So in the end

You carry just yourself,

What comes with you, are your deeds

So depend on no one because no one will bear the burden of your seeds...

IN THE MIRROR

Walking across the room in a hurry

Collecting things for my start,

Cursing the day, in a little worry

Looking at the room, kept in pathetic art…

As I prance from one corner to the other

Losing my self control,

A glimpse of the sight

Catches my mind’s hold…

A glimpse not strange

But certainly new,

Something that is not vague

But is very true…

Scanning from top to bottom

I wonder,

Time has shown magnificent changes

To which I vehemently surrender…

As I stare at the reflection

For many reasons I rejoice,

Because in the bright shadow I see a successful individual

Who always had many choice…

At every stage

Choices were many,

To choose one out of them

Was not easy honey…

Today I don’t regret

For all those loses, failures and hardships,

Because they polished the darker side

Though it was a bitter sip…

What was in store for me

Was very unpredictable,

And the fact that time changes life

Made my journey very stable…

A voice ringing in my ear

Shoo’s my thoughts away,

Calling me back to reality

Reminds me that I still have a long way…

With my realization and discovery put aside

I head towards the voice,

I look at all those people

Who stood by me through my choice…

Today as I look at them

I feel really blessed,

Nobody could have been more lucky

To get such a lovely set…

Heart of heart I murmur

Nothing is for me but everything is for you,

I don’t see myself anywhere

Had you not been there through…

Well guys enough of sentiments

I don’t preach to be a drama queen,

In life if you go down, you do come up

Is what I have seen…

YOUR DAUGHTER

Walking along the busy road
Trying to reach my stop 10 minutes early, I manage
Getting into the bus and grab a window seat
To have a half an hour nap before reaching college…

Putting my headphones under the A.C. I sit
Casually resting with my bag to left I sleep
My mouth half open and head hung low
Ssshhh the sleep is deep…

Half way through I’m abruptly awake
Because the dream I saw
Was ugly,
But not fake…

A dream so correct
But will never turn true
A dream that lucidly shows my mistakes
For which I should repent, trust me I do…

Why it’ll never turn true
Is because you’ll never come to know
Since all happened so privately
And when I confront them now I go low…

I’m being told that
Whatever happened wasn’t a sin
It was just an adolescence fantasy
Bursted by my innocence pin…

Every time I think about this
I’m so disturbed
Damn it!! Where were my senses
And were logics all curbed??...

I’m sorry Ma and Pa
I can’t tell you many things
If only I could delete few chapters of my life
“My life song” happily I would sing…

Not only now but
I would repent for the mistakes whole through my life
As for others these faults are nothing
But they aren’t approved by my conscience…

I promise to you Ma and Pa that one day
“She’s my daughter” with proud you’ll tell
Because now I have become more responsible
And won’t repeat the same mistakes as I have already fell…

From this juncture
I’ll strive to take my life to higher levels
And will prove your worth
Without getting caught in the plot made by “clever”…

Life has given me another chance
Which won’t go in vain
I love you guys so much
I’ll definitely justify your hard work and pain…

UNTAMED LIFE

I pick up my phone to attend the call
Just to hear my friend calling me to her villa opposite to the mall…

Pleading me to make it to her birthday party tonight
To which with sarcasm I reply “yeah right”…

Gushingly I make it to the villa right at 10
To see the place brimming with her friends…

Quickly I sneak in to find the birthday babe
Rolling across the room as if I’m drape…

On my way I’m stopped
Like for once my mind is robbed…

My eyes transfixed reading someone’s gestures
That individual standing opposite to me, unique amongst the present creatures…

For once when our eyes met
The world around us seized…

Many questions raised in my mind
Answers to which were difficult to find…

“Yes!! you are the same one
With whom I thought it was all done”…

Without further delay I moved towards exit gate
Without even thinking about my mate…

All through my way I’m disturbed
Because of that meeting that has made me all perturbed…

I throw myself at a place so lonely
Such that it’s me only

Sitting there I get reminded of days when we were best buddies
For whom it was always joys and no worries…

How without realizing we got so close
But due to fear of losing you I could never disclose…

Disclose, how much I liked you
A feeling that was so true…

How I kept mentioning about my “guy”
A description very similar to you, but sigh…

Sigh, wondering are you really not getting it
Or ignoring it, thinking it’s my wit…

Then, I couldn’t decipher what you were thinking
Because all I knew was that towards you my heart was drifting…

Things changed as we entered last year
Glued to project work and sooo many exams to clear…

Soon were we into our worlds unknown
Reaping benefits of seeds sown…

We lost all contacts and touch
Busy with our lives too much

When I saw you today I realized you haven’t changed
But meeting you today was a little strange…

After looking at me when you stood still
I could sense that same feeling within…

Now all my queries have resolved
Because the tears trickling down my eyes, in your tears they dissolved…

“I’m sorry I just walked off”
Because talking to you now is little tough…

I fear what if the proximity increases and I fall for you again
Now things are not same but have changed…

As things are fixed
I’m someone’s fiancée and you are doing wonders in the career you kissed…

Now there was no way we could get back
Because our lives are running on different tracks…

But somehow I can never forget you
Since willingly we separated each other by the lines we drew…

This love between us is so unique and innocent
And beautiful were the times that together we spent…

LOSE YOURSELF

LOSE YOURSELF

Tearing the sleep my eyelids open
To see you gripped onto your couch
That manly charade covered with innocence
Triggers me to launch…

I cover you with a blanket and kiss your forehead
Quickly do you draw yourself inwards
The ‘you’ now is so charming that
Even your lull speaks a thousand words…

How you have been there whenever I needed you
Sometimes as hanky and sometimes as bolster
Always a shoulder to lay my head and weep
Shooing away my worry monster…

Ever ready to share things
And to celebrate my victory
Surprising me with chivalric gifts
Weaving beautifully my life-story…

You maximized my happiness and
Minimized my pains
Certain was I with you
That noting goes in vain…

Thinking this, tears roll down my eyes
To not have recognized you so far
And I’m wondering whether
I ever can make it at par…

Because all I expected was a mere friendship
And a relationship of beautiful understanding
But you proved yourself
To be outstanding…

How is it that you know me so well
That my needs were met before said
Why are you being so nice without receiving anything
“What if I never like you the way you do?? “ don’t you dread…

I part myself from you, to the groceries
To start with my daily chores and to make you a tea
In the cupboard I find a torn note
Dated 4th July and here it goes:

“Happy Birthday Sweetheart
Enjoy your day fully
And as you wanted
Today is Sunday, thankfully…

All I wanna say is
I’ll strive till the end to win your heart
Because I’m blessed to have you in my life
And all I want is HAMEESHA YOUR SAATH “…

I hear your foot steps
Nearing the kitchen
Hurriedly I crumble the note
And hide it under the ignition…

An assurance that I discovered nothing
And everything is the same
We have the morning tea
And begin with our daily game…

Within an hour you leave home
And now it’s just me and my note
Wondering how do I let out that
I too feel the same as what you wrote…

The day passes and there you return
Weary and tired you enter the apartment
I get you, your evening snack
But today is a little different…

I sit beside you and not diagonally opposite
Unlike the usual “we”
Slowly I hold your hand as I look down
And you look at me…

Turning my neural vocabulary pages
Surprised to find them plain
You wonder what’s wrong with me
That’s strangling my vein…

I with a heavy voice call out to him
And tell him how much I regret to not have understood
That he attended all my frantic calls
And ran up to wherever I stood…

I say this with my head bent
And can see his head lowering too
Trying to make an eye contact
And heart of heart I feel “HOW CUTE”…

He slowly lifts my head
And says in a gentle tone
“Don’t feel sorry and regret
I’m glad you realized it so soon“ …

He continued saying
“This day is very special for me
As I have finally succeeded
And this calls on for a treat”…

Seeing this again
Tears drop down my eyes
Looking at me he smile
Raising his arm to wipe…

Settling down for dinner
It was a different feeling that day
Both of us so damn happy
And with loads to share…

This was a beginning of a new story
A new journey for “us”
And adventure with loads of love, care, happiness
And little fights, drama and fuss!!